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Inside-out heart of an upside-down soul
Thursday, July 31, 2003
12:06 a.m.
In the car on the way to McAllen:
**Tap, tap, tap** - Chris
"What's wrong now?" - Jinx
"Nothing." - Nate
"Change the song." - Nahi
"Why?" - Ikky
"I didn't do it." - Anthony
"Yes, you did. I saw you." - Faye
**Tap, tap, tap** - Chris
"Then what's with the face?" - Jinx
"What face?" - Nate
"Because I hate that one." - Nahi
"But I love it." - Ikky
"You can't prove anything!" - Anthony
"Ugh, shut up. Just shut up." - Faye
**Tap, tap, tap** - Chris
**Slurp** - Steve
"Fuck, Chris, if you don't stop that tapping..." - Skittles
"Watch the road." - Jinx
"I am watching the road!" - Skittles
"The face you make so you look all angsty and depressed." - Jinx
"I make no such face." - Nate
"You can hear that song later, when I'm not in the car." - Nahi
"Yeah...or I can hear it right now." - Ikky
"Am I annoying you?" - Anthony
"You won't be annoying me anymore if you shut up now." - Faye
**Slurp** - Steve
"Can I have some?" - Chris
"Sure." - Steve
"You do, too." - Jinx
"No, I don't." - Nate
"Ikky, I swear I'm going to-" - Nahi
"Not listening, not listening, not listening!" - Ikky
"What would the point in that be?" - Anthony
**SLUUUUURP** - Chris
"CHRIS WOULD YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP?!" - Skittles
"WATCH THE ROAD!" - Jinx
**Swerve temporarily, straighten with a jerk** - Car
"Uuugh...you all woke me up." - Grams
"Hee hee hee..." - Steve
"I love car trips." - Chris
-- Chris
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She came to me and she said, "Well I don't know how well you blow but here's fifty in advance."
Saturday, July 12, 2003
11:50 p.m.
No, no, no, no. Ew. I have to wash my eyes out. I walked in on Chris and Nate...Chris had his hand in Nate's pants and I'm not STUPID, I know what he was doing to him. Totally. Weirded. Out. I didn't see any skin...but Nate had this look on his face...I'm completely disgusted with myself having to say this, but I got turned on. Yes. I got a hard-on from seeing Chris jerking Nate off. Chris is, like, my brother, and Nate is my best friend, and you are not supposed to get hard-ons from seeing your brother doing something like that to your best friend. I am going to go die of shame now.
-- Ikky
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Couldn't you wait until I'm finished eating before you shoot my brains out?!
Tuesday, July 1, 2003
12:10 a.m.
Here I sit, eleven minutes into the happy month of July, with Jinx sitting beside me, trying to convince me that I should totally screw the living daylights out of his kid sister. See anything wrong with this picture? You know, other than the fact that he knows I have an incredibly gorgeous boyfriend that I love and loves me back that I could "screw" if I wanted to.
I've told him to go away and leave me the hell alone at least fourteen times, but I'm beginning to think he has long before lost his sense of hearing, and I have just forgotten. Oh, sad day.
On the flipside, the day wasn't so bad. I've had bad days lately, but today wasn't as bad as the rest. I'd even hazard saying this day has been an actual, genuine good day for me. We didn't have any major fights or arguments, no one got their feelings hurt/heart broken, I didn't get hit, punched, kicked, or physically hurt, Nate wasn't in a bad mood the whole morning and most of the afternoon, and Grams actually made a decent meal without the aid of the handy-dandy microwave. I'd say, all-in-all, I liked today very much, and I hope tomorrow looks just as good or maybe even better.
I wish I didn't get the feeling of impending doom every time I say that. I'll have to watch my back for surprise lightning-strikes tonight.
-- Chris
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get up and put on your smile
Monday, June 30, 2003
01:50 a.m.
Yaaaaaay, well, that only took forever. Chris-kun INSISTED he do the initial entry in this thing. Honestly, he thinks of himself as team leader all of the time. Silly brother. **Tweaks his nose**
Oh gosh, what a name they picked for this thing. Antipathetic. They were going to call it Misathropy Morphine but that was too long, and so was Natural Antipathy, so they settled on Antipathetic. Morbid, aren't we?
I'm the only happy one, or so it seems. I think Chris and Nate make each other happy...but I don't know about the rest of us. Anthony is always so cold to everyone you can't tell WHAT he's feeling and Jinx's happiness is all a front and he knows we all know it, but he won't stop.
He fakes most of his smiles for us, so we don't worry about him. It's one of Jinx's pet peeves, people worrying about him. He's had enough of that, I think. His whole life he's had everyone worrying like fuck about him and his "disease", so he hates for anyone to act like they care too much now.
I think he secretly wants to be pampered, though, but the person he falls in love with. I think that's why he loves me so much: because I pamper people. I don't know. I can't figure him out most of the time.
Okay, time for me to shut up now. It's late and I wanna go to bed. (Even though all of the others will still be up hours later.)
-- Ikky
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it doesn't hurt as much when you bite down
Monday, June 30, 2003
01:36 a.m.
Okay, so Niney (FINALLY) got us this stupid diary journal thing that Ikky's been bitching about for a zillion years. I, of course, had to be the first to write in it. She said she was going to link to us but we were not allowed to link back to her. (What the fuck?) She also wants me to state a few rules so we can look back on them in this first entry and remember them exactly the way they are.
Rule #1: We are NOT allowed to view the entries after they go in, nor are we allowed to change them. They stay as they are forever and ever unless we mess up an entry, and if that happens, we have to let Nine fix it for us. This is because there are like five people writing in this thing, sharing it, and she doesn't want us reading each other's private thoughts or whatever. This rule is the one rule we must make sure to NEVER break. (Blah, blah, blah...)
Rule #2: If we're going to change anything about this thing we MUST inform the Head Bitch. (Cough, cough, sorry, Nine.)
Rule #3: If it just so happens that someone accidentally views the entries of the others, they are to tell the person whose entries they read and keep secret anything at all they read that they suspect is personal to that person. (So if I read an entry from Anthony saying he admits he loves Ikky I gotta tell Anthony I saw it, get the crap beaten outta me, and never tell a soul I saw it. Cheap deal, but sounds fair. Ow, that hurt, Anthony.)
I think that's about it. I guess we can all just use this thing from now on. Woo-hoo, I'm overjoyed. I'll try and fix it up to look nice later on. This is a very plain layout, in case you haven't noticed. (Hard to miss, eh?)
-- Chris
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